Back from the Doc | kyala's Blog

hey...

 like a lot of people out there, i was diagnosed with depression. i went back to the doctor this morning after Edge*( i'll explain Edge later on) and i talked to her. the medication ive been on helps but sometimes i feel so... overwhelmed that i just want to crawl in bed and not come out for hours on end, but ive never had any suicidal thoughts... she said that what i was describing, given my behavior over the time ive been seeing her, that it sounded like i had an anxiety problem. i start my new meds in the morning. and as strange as it sounds... ive gotten used to having a depression problem... having an anxiety problem is a little scary. ya, i know, its the same problem just a different name... but it doesnt seem like that in my mind... but its also a           a little refreshing. im not depressed........ its a new thought............

anywho, Edge is this camp my school does for athletes to make us faster and stronger. its $100. today was the first day so, by default, very easy. tomorrow they said we're going to be SORE!!! its six weeks... i know im going to feel it but i want to be a better soccer player so this is a really good way.